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I need to put up more work.
....
and I'm going to.


I just finished a huge legend of zelda painting, a squirrel skull mount painting, along with many miscellaneous drawings.

I don't plan for anyone to read this I think this is just me nagging myself.


I'm doing the 30 day sketchbook challenge can i stick with it? WHO KNOWS.

So i haven't updated this in a long time and I'm getting tired of seeing a story from high school on my page

~New items~

- I have a job. <---- fjosghowhgosehg! Just thinking about it gives me tingles. I work in an art supply store,  called Blick art materials some might know it as Dick Blick, but the dick was dropped for obvious reasons. It's so rad there but seeing I'm so new I always feel like I'm always on watch. But I like it and I feel like I'm really starting to fit it. It's really casual there and I get a SAHWEET employee discount of 30%

- I've been working on a lot of pieces (which will hopefully be up soon.) One being a very LARGE painting of Link from Legend of Zelda and the three goddesses.

- The gap year was good in a way because It really gave me a chance to find what I was really passionate about. But it felt like a forever summer...beware the gap feel.

- I really want to get into Mass art but I feel like I'm going to be going to the local community college for a year to get a good footing and then transfer.

- Skyrim has sucked most of my life away this year..
   It's glorious.

So yeah.

PEACE.

There's a strange rewarding feeling
when you can stare at a past lover's photograph,
mat it,
make it pretty for an art show.
And while you do all this you hear a friend tell you
all the things they wish they could do to her
things you used to do with her.
And all you can think about
is not the girl in the photograph
but the girl who
has a hold on your heart now.


Just a random thought i had tonight, as today in school i had to mat some work for the school wide art show and two of my stronger pieces feature an ex who left quite the impression on me. The break up put me in a funk. Then i met my current girlfriend 3 months ago. And she knows almost all about the past. My friend kept complimenting my ex's eyes, her body, how hot she was. Asking if maybe he would have a chance if she wasn't lesbian. I hummed along to my music and kept working, laughing at his obvious want for her. And i looked in her eyes via photograph, And all i could see was a photograph. It was a piece of art for sure, but i felt no ties to her. I then checked my phone, chuckled and smiled at the cute text i had gotten from my girlfriend Maggie, a love poem.
    It's funny how we always have that person we think we'll never get over. And then skips in someone you'd never expect to meet or feel close to for that matter.

I'm thankful for Maggie, she came into my life when i needed her. She inspired me to pick up a pencil and my camera and do what i love, stop doing nothing when i get home. She's my inspiration and a sun on a rainy day.

So, i thought why not update my journal seeing im waiting for my friends to come over.
They're helping me out with my photo shoot and then im feeding them pizza, i think that's an even trade... I have a critique tomorrow on 3 pieces of my concentration and i've done a total of 0.

So i was thinking about what actually makes me scared and i thought i'd write them down for fun..

1. Clowns. Enough said..clowns especially clowns like IT. I will run or flip out if i see any.
2. Ventriloquist dolls.. scare the crap out of me, i think it's really only because they're so creepy looking
3. Dolls that kill you in your sleep, like Chucky. Do i really have to explain that one?
4. Anything downright gorey, like Saw. Last time i watched Saw i spent the whole movie with my face in a pillow curled up on my ex girlfriend's lap.
(Embarrassing? Yes.)  
5. Faces staring at me from the dark at night, especially now that my mom spends most of her time at her boyfriend's house. I always imagine some crazy serial killer breaking down my door. Note to self: nothing happens like that in Farmington and you live in a fucking old-school suburb.

I think that might be it...
Now for things i CAN do that people are scared of and i think little about them.

1. See blood or dissect animals for school. I was a beast at cutting open that rat while my partner almost puked.
2. Watch horror movies that only involve a little gore, i laugh more so when things jump out in movies. I usually always watch them with people who scream because then i just laugh x]
3. Roller coasters, love em!
4. Flying on an air plane, Most divorced parents just put there kid on a bus or you know pick them up at their house to go spend time with them
Nope, i was put on a plane from the young age of 9. I even enjoy turbulence.
5. Fire, common who doesn't like burning things?
6. Swimming in large open bodies of water
7. Going for walks at night
8. Lastly, im not afraid to grow up i'm just going to be  weird and funny person my whole life.

I've seen this term be thrown around lately.
I mean for Christs sake...it's on my school shirt. Class of 2011 HATERS FA11 BACK. ...i didn't purchase that shirt..
So my real question is... where has this term even come from? Did the hipsters bring it in their new vocabulary that makes me feel like an old person whenever they talk. Haters...
I mean i guess haters could be those girls who hate your shoes... but honestly i think that they more you claim there are haters hatin on you...that more likely haters will start flocking to you like zubats in a dark cave <--- nerdom went up 25 experience points.
This is a short journal which is awesome seeing i need to shorten these sometimes. But yea.
Haters? WHY??

Now the question... are haters hatin on you because you're being a hater and hatin' on them?
WHY CAN'T WE ALL GET ALONG!? 3:
^Just kidding...not really.